Last Night...the only way 2 describe thursday...

''I don't like taking pain pills, I don't like to be numb, but tonight, maybe I'll take one." ~Noah. Noah's Arc~


SOOOOOOOOO

These past couple of days have been, eventful, to say the least. I feel like I am spiraling.  Not quite out of control, but totally into confusion.  Apparently when I came back home I had to make up for all the drama here that I missed.  Ugh

I have been hanging out on the UofM - Flint campus almost everyday this week.  Tuesday through Friday I was there.  And not really coming home.  It has been awesome.
One of the past days I went to the mall and met a friend who was just getting out of work.  It was fun as hell just wandering around with him and another friend.
The friend I met up there started telling me about this stalker they had, and I was like like wtf ever.  But he was for real.  I read these texts and I was like wow, thats crazy.  So I took the number down and tried to call it, 4 times, no answer.  The number texts me back and we get into this huge fight for an hour and a half.  After a while things start calming down, because this guy is for real denying he sent any of those texts.  We get to just chatting, and it ends up I know who this person is.  And, They have a girlfriend. We have been texting back and forth. Oops

I went to a party at my friends room, and started talking to an old friend of mine, that was something, but never turned into a relationship.  The longer the night goes on, and the more 100 proof Captain I drink, the more him and I get to talking.  By 5:30 a.m. we are dating and already had sex that night.  Oops.  Now I don't know if we are still dating or if it was the alcohol speaking.  He has been working so I haven't had that much of a chance to talk to him.

Finally, I still think about they guy I left behind at work everyday.  Sometimes I wonder if I should have stayed just so I could talk to him.  Oh well though, maybe all that has been going on will help me to figure out what I am supposed to do.

I have orientation at the local community college on monday to get into classes this semester so that I can get my GPA up and go back to UofM.  I can't wait to get out of the house again.

Feeling slightly crazy tonight, and wishing that my best friend hadn't backed out on going out tonight.

Peace