Thursday, January 21, 2010

Hit Me....I have GREAT Lawyers

"Who can say, if i've been changed for the better, because I knew you, I have been changed for good"
~For Good, Wicked~

Just wanted to say thank you to everyone who reads this.  I know that blogspot only says I have 10 followers, but those are the people with accounts.  For all my friends that read this without accounts, thanks for the support.  Everyone who reads helps me in a way, even if I don't know how yet, you do.
Below is a picture of some of my best friends.  Everyone of these people have helped me out when I needed them most.  Unfortunately I could not fit any others.  Trust me when I say a mural of all the people who have helped me would not fit all the people who mean the earth, moon, and stars to me.  You guys are the family I want to back me up when times are tough.  You have always been there for me, and I will always be there for you...
Love You!!!!

Today, I got up at 3:40 in the A.M.  I went to bed at midnight.  I kind of feel thats a little lopsided. lol
Sat around just hanging out with my mom, big sister, and my nephew.  I got all ready to go out today, including shaved and plucked my eyebrows.  I was really hoping to impress future employers.  Unfortunately my family reminded me why I could not rely on them for anything.  My mother went back to bed till her and my dad had to get up and go to work.  I wish I could get some kind of break, just to help me get out, and to look for a job.
I have a lot of bills to pay, especially ones I racked up while I had a job.  I got my credit card, phone, student loans, and I want to start putting money away for a car, and an apartment.  Right now I have 4.65 to my name. Two dollars in actual cash.  Ninety cents on my Wal-Mart Debit Card.  And Seventy-five cents in my checking account.  I hate being broke.  But what is worse is I can not get any help from any of my family.  I guess the 50 dollar video game my parents bought takes precedent.

My moms sister came over today.  She picked my little sister up from school and brought her home so my sister or I would not have to walk and get her.  We said thank you.  She should have left.
She felt it was her job to tell us what to do because there were some dishes that we had not had the chance to clean still in the sink.
She informed me today of a few things:

  • I guess I'm a squater, and my parents should put me out because I am a worthless piece of shit(her words)
  • I am a lier.  I asked her when I lied, and she then started yelling about something from my job....
  • I was apparently my former bosses boy-toy.  She also proceeded to tell me she knew about all "those" people on the crew.
  • And She was going to hit me.  I wanted her too.  I have lawyers that will put her away, place her son in foster care, and she will be paying out the nose for the rest of her natural born life.  I don't fight.  I get vengeance.
Just wondering if anybody would support me in saying it would be in my little sisters best interest if this woman was not at our house threatening to hit me.

Other news,  I am going to the gay bar on Friday.  I'm pretty pumped.  I haven't been out with my friends in quite a while.  I miss them.  Then saturday I am going to a house party for one of the local fraternities here.  Again, Im pumped.  I haven't been to a good old fashioned fraternity party since September!
I am probably going to be pretty drunk all weekend, if I can find some money. I am so tired of mooching.

Lately I have been thinking a lot about a boy from my past.  He is perfect, and I kind of wish that I was still in contact with him.  I am trying to get a hold of him.  I miss him a lot these days.  I care(d) about him more than I have about most people in my life.  I hope I get to speak with him again soon....

I would love it if people commented, even if it's just garble to know that people are really out there.  I think right now, the people reading this are my support group.  You are the ones that are helping me to get through some tough times, and into the better days.

Thank You


  1. I'm glad that I made your mural love :] I'm glad that you can come to me when you need to talk to someone. As for your mom... that is ridiculous. If you need to get out of the house for a day or something, just let me know, I can pick you up.

  2. Hey you know I am here. Going threw so of the stuff you are , and then a little more.. but still here ... man don't let people like your Aunt get you down. I will never understand why family has to kick you when you are down. Don't stop trying , and really if that is how she is your right she doesn't belong around... Real good to do that in front of you sister. Don't let them bring you down .. just do you best man.
    That is all we can do... man dont' take on so much at one time... hope maybe they will help you more. Don't understand not giving you a ride are letting you use that car. I know it hard but hang in there ... my email is in my profile and you got it already .... I am going to have to step away from blogging for a little while ... but use my email man ...
    One in your corner and reading ... wishing better for you ...
    Love Lee

  3. I wish there was more that I could do to help, Travis. Your family certainly isn't helping. I hope that a good job comes quickly for you. And that you can get back with the perfect boy.

  4. Is it socially acceptable to hump payphones?

  5. Thank You Guys so much for all the support. It means a lot to me that everyone is there.

    Lisa: I love you, and I had a lot of fun hanging out, and be safe on your drive this weekend.

    Lee: Thank you so much for the kind words. I can't stress enough how much it is everyone around me, and in contact with me that keeps me going. Reading other blogs on here I know that my problems are nothing compared to some of the hardships I have been reading about, but they are just my rants, and I am really glad someone understands.

    Green and Purple: all I can say is... Me too. I am pretty optimistic, and if coming home wasn't the best choice I have a few other places I can go that could be better for me.

    Stephan: Haha. You know, I am not sure if it is or not. But as recently as yesterday in some places it was not socially acceptable to be gay either. I just re-invented phone sex.

  6. travis dont let your crazy aunt tell you that bullshit..its not true..and it was good seeing you tonight. hope shit works out bro and if you need anything you know im here for you..