Sunday, July 25, 2010

I Don't Know Where To Begin....

I left everyone hanging, and for that I am sorry.....

So the past month or so has been, an adventure, to say the least.

I have no idea where to begin, as usual, lol, and I want to tell you all some things I have to keep to myself, but I will talk to you as best as I can....

June 22, that was the day that I became a we, and I am loving it.   He makes me smile, even when there is nothing that I want to smile about.  He takes care of me, especially when I need it most, and having him in my bed every night has made my dreams so much better.  I don't know if he knows it, but I try to show him how much I care.  I hope he knows, god, I hope he knows.

I am starting to try and get back on track in life.  I am planning on getting back into school, I have a job that pays me, and I am almost caught up on all my bills(other than student loans).

My boyfriend and I are kind of freaks. We love to have someone else involved with us, which keeps things kind of spicy.  But we are also pretty picky, so we arent just messing around with random people.....we are smart, and safe about it.

Work is kind of crazy. I am sort of tired of where I am, employment wise, but I don't want to quit.  I like the people I work with, and I like having the money to pay my bills.  It just sucks that I am minimum wage, when it is impossible to survive on a job that would pay 10 dollars an hour.  I keep trying to save money to pay for my phone, but it is complicated when you are only bringing in 150 bucks a week, and having to buy your own food, toiletries, pay back bills, and try to help your parents.  I know people think that I should be able to save, but it gets very hard when I can't get ahead a little bit.  I am seriously thinking about getting another job, just so I can make some money to save.  I don't know how I am going to do it in the fall though when I get back into classes.

I am just going to have to take it one step at a time....like I have done all my life.

I know this sounds sooooo repetitive, but I am seriously missing traveling the country, working with exotic animals, trying to raise the awareness and donations for my favorite rescue organization.  I think I have posted a link before, but I am going to again.  I used to work for the GW Exotic Animal Park based in Oklahoma, but I quit to take care of some personal issues, and work out my problems at home.  Well, and I say this a lot, not a day goes by that I don't think about it, and I think about the what if's....It just happens, and I know I shouldn't dwell, but who knows....

I keep thinking about my boyfriend, and I have so much I want to tell everyone about him, and I, but I am starting to keep more to myself for personal reasons, plus I don't trust my current employer not to use something they read in my blog against me, even though it is kind of illegal ish.

I am going to let you guys go for now, but I am going to try and update regularly again.  It has been so complicated

Love You