I am hurting so bad, and I can't even talk about it.

I am constantly fighting a battle with myself, because there are options in my head that I am dying, just for considering them.  But there are things I am not able to handle.  I am trying so hard to be everything I can not.  I am trying so hard....

I am going through a lot of things right now, and I don't want to talk.  I just want to vent, but the outlets I have I can not use, and the people I want to, I can't.

I am so lost.

When do I get to be happy for real?

I love You

Goodnight blog world. I will update on a regular basis again someday....
Travis